I have a long history of Depression and also ptsd. I have been raped in the past and more recently sexually abused in the relationship i had with my sons father. we are obviously not together now and i live alone with my son.
I cant move forward ive tried counselling for year after year after year and lots of medications. Im now on duloxetine /
I have distressing thoughts many times that i wish i was dead and almost say to myself dont be so stupid. but they are there. I would never act on these as i have a little boy reliant on me
anyone else feel like this where they feel they have troubling thoughts that they obviously dont want but seem to come up anyway