At what point do I say ok the depression is back?

[sootballs]

My life = stressful. Like really really stressful. I have PTSD from a hospital negligence case, two small children - one disabled - superficial family who provide no support and actively erode any headway I make. Dealing this year with a change in career and oldest starting school (fully statemented) as well as trying to keep a good marriage stable.

I was an outpatient for a year from our MH unit, had excellent therapy which left me able to cope, that finished last october. Was very ill at one point, don't think I knew just how ill, spent 8 months on Sertraline, part of the illness was me refusing any ADs for worry about breastfeeding until I made enough progress to see I did need them. I didn't like them though an have been AD and therapy free since January time.

Until this last week, I had flu whoch I thibk is a trigger. I can't sleep but then can't wake up. Can't take joy from anything, feel distanced from those around me. I know it's partly my family dragging me down but I can't help but feel the back dog is back.

[sootballs]

CBT is not an option for me although it can be of benefit; a (trained) psychologist agreed that there are reasons why it won;t work on me. PTSD is the underlying issue and quite honestly there just a lot of shit to deal with and occasionally it gets too much. Thinking I could just snap out of it left me wasting my daughters first year in a fog - don't remember any of it. Which is why the comments strike me as someone who has not had clinical depression.

[BisleyBoy]

Do you think you could maybe get some other talking therapy on the nhs like counselling? I think that's maybe best if you're issues are very deep-rooted? Or EMDR therapy, as you mentioned ptsd? If not on the nhs, would you be able to go private?
I hope you can ignore the insensitive comments from MummyB, no-one else thinks you should pull your socks up and think positive.

[MummyBtothree]

I cant recall using the phrase or insinuating 'pull your socks up' to anyone as that really would be offensive to anyone who has depression or similar. As for having no experience of clinical depression, suffering at the hands of my narcissistic parents all my childhood then entering an equally abusive relationship spiralled me into intense dark times where it was only a failed suicide attempt that I was admitted to hospital for psychiatric treatment & turned a corner in my life when I also at the same time found out I was pregnant with my eldest son. Making assumptions is what I was knocked for, is tjat not the same?. The truth is, we havent a clue what each other have been through in life, we are all different and should be treated as such x

[sootballs]

Oh go away.

[MummyBtothree]

Apologies if I came across as a complete arsehole earlier, I hope you manage to lift the cloud thats hanging over you. Best wishes.

[SilverBirch2015]

Sootballs I do hope your conversation with the GP is helpful tomorrow.

[Givemecaffeine21]

How's it going Sootballs? Keep us posted x