is this normal?

[lilymolly]

Hi

Done a search on here but cant find any threads thta help, so decided to start another one.

I have 10month old baby, who us a dream, sleeps well, very active healthy etc etc, on mat leave going back to work in January, have great house, job, partner horses and a dog which is great.
I have had a history of depression but have been clear for about 2 1/2 years now.

DD was poorly for last few weeks and so have i, but recently I have been feeling very lethargic,not eating, trouble getting back to sleep when dd wakes up early. I am feeling very urghh. its the only way to describe it. But what is worrying is that I am soooooo stroppy and losing temper with dp and even dd
I have such a short temper and seem to be snapping at dp all the time, as he is irritating me.
(We have no sex live and are going to relate to sort that out)

do you think I could have pnd?
I am not feeling low or particularly sad like I have in the past, but I am suffering from dizziness (since birth), which docs thinks can only be anxiety as have had tests to rule out any other cause. I dont really feel anxious, no panic attacks etc, but do worry about mess of house, going back to work etc as do millions of others.

I guess what I am trying to ask, is is this normal or could I have depression? All answers gratefully recieved.............

Hi lilymolly. Sorry to hear things not too good at the moment. I went through a very similar thing about a year ago, when DS2 was about 12mths old. I would have bouts of tearfulness - I would just sit and sob for no apparent reason. Like you I felt lethargic, I lost weight,no libido and was extremely stroppy with everyone, would fly off the handle over the silliest things.

Looking back on it, I think it was stress that caused mine - 3 young kids with the relentless noise, mess, sleep deprivation etc. etc. I remember feeling that I just wanted to be me for a while, just wanted some peace and quiet and no-one harassing me for something!!

I've found that I've got better with time. I still get stressed and shout and snap at everyone but I'm trying to control that!

If you're really worried that you're depressed then go see the Doc, but maybe just a good friend with a shoulder to cry on or one who doesn't mind a good moan might do?

I hope things feel better soon

Hi Lilly, how dizzy is dizzy? Do you mean difficulty keeping your balance dizzy? Just that a friend of mine who posts on here, Spacecadet, had very similar problems - turns out that she had balance problems caused by labyrinthitus, and not PND as her GP thought. might be a long shot, but could be worth you googling labyrinthitus to sere if that rings any bells.

Hi, thanks for replys, dizzieness is not labarynthitis, as had this checked out, nor is it anaemia or any other blood disorder and have had eyes checked.
When I say dizzy, i mean light headed, and I have to stop what I am doing for a moment.
After speaking to some friends this afternoon, I feel a little bit better about it all, and they agree that they get these symptoms too apart from dizzieness.
I hope its just a "new mum" thing and that we all go thru it to some degree, but nice to hear about other people with similar symptoms, just to reasure ones self. x

I remember getting so dizzy I felt like the house was tipping over! I think it was sheer exhaustion though. Do you get any rest? Mine would only sleep for about 45 mins during the day and then wake four or five times each night - no chance to "rest when they rest." It's gradually got better though. Just spend as much time in bed as possible (don't worry I mean asleep or resting - not anything else!).

thanks, cant really blame tiredness, although dd only sleeps in car during day, she sleeps well at night rarely waking up but is getting up at 6.30 ish sometimes 5.45am, so not really that tired, iyswim?

Think it may be a bit of pmt possibly?