I can't stop thinking of dying.
I have thought of this in the past briefly, just a cold feeling comes over me, then it goes. It just won't shift this time.
I'm 36, all I have thought about for the last 10 days is one day I won't be here. Where do I go, what will happen to my children ( 2 girls, age 11 and 6).
My husband is 43, I think about how old we will both be at different stages in our girls lives. I seem to be obsessing about it, its driving me made, I feel nervous all the time, my head Tingles. I sit there thinking when we're old, how old will they be.
I sitting there thinking we should of had children as soon as we met 21 and 28 ( instead of 1st at 25 and 32 and 2nd at 30 and 37) Even though I know people have children much later in life than 37, my friends sister is due with her 3rd at 37 and her husband is 47!
The more I try not to think about the more its in my head, I compare to my mum shes only 58 with me at 38 and husbands dad is 68 With him at 44.
Thinking am I depressed, can't talk to anyone, they'll think I'm crazy.