I was diagnosed with this some months ago. I've been stressed before but nothing like this. I feel physically ill all day and every day, I don't want to eat, I am losing interest in my hobbies and am on the verge of donating my hobby stuff to a charity shop.
I am friendless and have been for years, I'm incapable of making or sustaining friendships. I'm not sure why, I guess I am just the sort of person that is not friend material.
My work is going badly wrong, I am expecting to be sacked any day now as I am the least efficient person there and am disliked by most if not all of my colleagues. I'm trying to do my best in my job but it's a constant struggle when I am doing something that doesn't keep my mind busy as then all my emotions are getting on top of me and I can't concentrate. It's fine when I am busy because my mind is occupied and I can keep the emotional crap at bay.
I am having counselling for what is increasingly seeming like an emotionally abusive childhood at worst and total indifference at best.
What I really need, but have never had, is a ComfortingCwtch, sadly in England there is a deficit of people who know what a Cwtch is let alone how to give one. I haven't had a proper one for years and years, if ever.