I've been diagnosed with depression for over a year, and was functioning up until January with anti-depressants, weekly GP visits and CBT. Things took a downward turn in January and I was referred to the crisis team and to a psychiatrist. Then my boss refused me time for any more medical appointments, contrary to the Occupational Health report and GP sick note. Had a very bad meeting, with union support, and ended up taking an overdose on the basis that my son would be better off financially.
That was a month ago, and I was then fully signed off work. The thoughts of wanting to be dead haven't really stopped but I have been open with my GP about it. She has kept asking if I want to go into hospital but I've said no, and kind of thought we had a deal. Last month, she referred me back to the crisis team and I got seen yesterday. My GP had written to them after my visit the previous day and asked them to assess whether I should be in hospital or not, and put all the details of what I'd told her.
The crisis team woman said I had two options: go into hospital or have the home treatment team involved. I said I didn't want either. She said I didn't have a choice. She also said that we'd need to see whether I was well enough to go on holiday at Easter.
I had my first session, unwillingly, with home treatment team today. He was actually ok. But he was honest about the holiday being at risk and that, if I didn't 'comply' with the medication changes or the involvement of the home treatment team, they'd probably assess me under the Mental Health Act and want to admit me.
I acknowledge that I'm not in a great place BUT I've had countless opportunities in the last month to kill myself and chosen not to. I'm talking about plans for the future and hopeful(ish) that the new therapy that I'm starting after the holiday might help. I need this holiday. Can they actually stop me from going without sectioning me, and might they section me to stop me from going? Thanks.