Ok so I've been to the doctor, put on ADs. They lifted my mood for the first few weeks, then back to feeling rubbish. Dosage upped. Started a course of CBT that is focused on getting me to do things to help me feel better. I've now started exercising, I'm making a real effort to stop binge eating and mostly am better though have relapses. I'm redesigning the garden which will involve lots of physical activity as I dig up areas, build things etc. I've decided to take up painting. I'm working on DS accepting a bottle so I can start getting out - I aim to do some volunteering once a week and have also looked into some photography and art clubs I could join for some social interaction (probably the scariest thing for me). I've even joined MN local to try and take part in some meet ups. All that is to say, I'm trying. But I just feel so rubbish.
I've read that depression is quite an inward focused thing, so perhaps I should stop thinking about my thoughts and feelings so much and just get on and do things. Would that help?
Any tips appreciated.