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Going to see the Dr tomorrow....

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Suddengeekgirl · 24/03/2015 20:44

I've been feeling flat and numb for the last few months, maybe longer, I'm not sure.
I'm struggling to find the joy in things.
I am definitely more anxious about stuff than normal, I've had to get dh to talk me down from a few things lately.
I can get on with life and I think I'm doing a pretty good job of maintaining the veneer. But I'm just not sure I feel like me iyswim.

I'm not even sure I know why I'm writing this tbh. Maybe it's practice for wtf I'm going to say to the dr. Blush

I don't know what I want to get out of the appointment either really. I'm really spooked by the idea of ADs, and guess there's probably huge waiting lists for talking therapies.

Feeling rather anxious about it already- which is daft I guess. Confused

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BisleyBoy · 25/03/2015 11:35

Hi geek girl, have you had your appointment already and if so, how did it go?
It's not daft to feel anxious about going to see the gp. I have to see mine fairly regularly and my stomach churns and my heart pounds as I sit in the waiting room.

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Suddengeekgirl · 25/03/2015 11:45

I have thanks bisley

I've been prescribed Prozac for a month Confused I ummed and ahhed about filling the prescription but then thought, well if I asked dh he'd say just go get them. So I have a box of them ready to start tomorrow I guess.

I'm a bit freaked about the prospect of taking them tbh. I'm worried about how they'll make me feel. But I don't want to feel like this forever either.

I used to joke about needing Prozac. Blush

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BisleyBoy · 25/03/2015 13:09

Prozac was the first type of AD I took. Tbh I had no side effects from them. Some people do and some peoe don't. If you do have side effects they will usually subside after a while. If not, there are loads of other drugs your doctor can try.
I bet if you actually asked people, the amount that are taking, or who have taken ADs, you'd be surprised at the results. It's so common.

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Suddengeekgirl · 25/03/2015 14:51

I guess it is pretty common, people just don't talk about it much.

The list of possible side effect was pretty huge, and comprehensive! Shock

The dr did say there were the most commonly prescribed and easily tolerated. She also booked me in for blood tests to check my iron, glucose and thyroid levels. That's next week though.

I think I'd be more keen on taking then if I knew why I felt like this. I've not had any traumas or stresses lately. I guess if I knew why I felt like this then I'd be able to fix it more easily...

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Queenofknickers · 25/03/2015 14:59

Firstly well done for going to the GP - it's very hard to tell someone about feeling so bad. I've been on Prozac for nearly 20 years Blush now and it has been very effective. I remember I felt a bit sick and dizzy for about a fortnight but after that it was like someone has switched the colour back on. I haven't had any other side effects and it really has helped me. Take care of yourself Thanks

Nolim · 25/03/2015 16:05

Good for you op, best of luck.

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Suddengeekgirl · 25/03/2015 18:23

Thanks! Flowers

I'm going to start taking them tomorrow morning. I'm quite nervous of the potential side effects though! Confused And dh is away this weekend so I do need to be functioning enough to look after the dcs without side effects knocking me for 6.
Probably too much to hope that it'll help my rather short patience with the dcs over the weekend! Blush

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BisleyBoy · 25/03/2015 19:04

Proxac(fluoxetine) is an SSRI and from what I've read they are the best group of ADs in terms of side effects.
Did you have any childhood trauma? As that is known to be a cause of depression etc.

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Suddengeekgirl · 25/03/2015 19:43

Fairly straight forward childhood. I was bullied at primary (till I slapped her! Blush ) And again at secondary - in that very sneaky sky way that girls have where the victim doesn't realise they are being bullied till later. But neither were anything major and I wouldn't say it affected me after i started to find myself in my late teens.

Uni was great - if stressful at times.

I was a teacher - which I loved till I went PT. Then I was de-valued as a member of staff and lost my love. I'm now a SAHM and won't we going back to teaching - for me it doesn't work with actually wanting to spend time with my own dcs. They will always be my priority - not the school/ class.

I probably did have PND after ds was born - nearly 6 years ago. It was an EMCS which threw me completely. That and an inability to BF (due to a tongue tie which kept reattaching) left with me PND. I don't think I really realised at the time. Thankfully ds was a very easy baby once we hit 6mo and apart from not sleeping well he was a walk in the park! Grin I think I came out I it on my own, with time, and as my confidence as a mum grew.
Dd was born 4 years ago and was an ELCS. Totally different experience. And even though she had te same tongue tie/ BF issues as ds I didn't berate myself like before. I just made the choices that I knew worked out well last time. I didnt feel like I experienced PND after dd was born - mostly because I knew what I was doing, what to expect and that it would work out ok. :)

So.... bisley in answer to your question, no real or recent trauma here. Apologies for that massive answer! Blush

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BisleyBoy · 26/03/2015 09:06

Some of those things sound fairly stressful to be honest and they may have had an accumulative effect.
Even if your depression is not down to any particular event, it doesn't make the way you feel any less valid.
Have you taken your first AD yet? How do you feel?

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Suddengeekgirl · 26/03/2015 10:18

Suppose they were at the time.

I took my first pill this morning. Feel fine but a bit headachey. That could because AF is due though, or because I didn't get a chance to have my second cuppa before the school run.

Either way so far so good. :)

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BisleyBoy · 26/03/2015 14:05

Let's hope it stays that way. If I get side effects from an AD then I usually start to feel them an hour or so after I take it.

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Suddengeekgirl · 26/03/2015 19:06

Hmmm headachey and tired today. I had a real 3pm slump and almost nodded off before the school run! Confused

This could easily be hormonal though. Hmm

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BisleyBoy · 27/03/2015 07:53

I'm not sure that Prozac causes tiredness-could be though!
How are you feeling today?

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Suddengeekgirl · 27/03/2015 08:15

Ok I think, I'm still in bed as dh has a rare day off so is doing the school run etc. Grin
Tablet 2 taken.

Think it's just wait and see for the next couple of weeks. I am not a patient person, when I have a solution I want the thing fixed NOW! Blush

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Suddengeekgirl · 02/04/2015 19:40

So, I've been on the Prozac for a week and think it might be helping.

We had some really fierce wind here the other night and during the night I woke up because of it. I have sat in bed worrying about the storm and damage it might cause to our home in the past. The anxiety I felt about it this time was much much less though!

Dh thinks I seem a bit brighter too, which is nice.

I don't know whether it's all a lovely psycosomatic effect or not but it feels positive. :)

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