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Feel like I can't cope anymore

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oddconference · 15/03/2015 21:37

I've been having a lot of trouble with my medication, I had another thread about the suicidal thoughts citalopram caused and I'm beginning to feel like I can't take it anymore.

I'm so irritable with DS, I'm not engaging at all and I keep having to stop myself from shouting at him. He's nearly two and it looks like he's starting another clingy phase, and that's what I think is going to tip me over... I'm barely getting through the day doing the bare minimum, I can't cope if he's going to insist on being near me all the time. He's not sleeping well at the moment either which doesn't help, I'm tired and that's making it seem worse.

Everything just seems to be overwhelming me and looming at me. I thought when I stopped citalopram it would get better, and the intrusive suicidal thoughts are almost all gone, but I'm still floundering. I need to go back to the GP and get help but I'm not sure where I could even begin trying to explain without sounding like the most ungrateful terrible mother.

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frustratedashell · 15/03/2015 21:45

You are not a terrible ungrateful mother. You are a mother who is struggling with depression. It is not your fault! Go back to your GP and explain how you feel. They will not judge you, they will help you. I'm sorry you feel so low. Do you have any support? DP etc ?

oddconference · 16/03/2015 20:07

DH and I split up a few months back, but he's been coming to visit DS a little bit recently. My main support is my best friend, DS' godmother, but I feel like I'm leaning on her too much and taking advantage. She says it's okay and she wants to help but the friendship feels like all I have and I'm afraid I'll ruin it like I ruined my relationship with DH.

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frustratedashell · 16/03/2015 21:19

I can understand how you feel but I'm sure your friend is happy to be there for you. Why did you and DH split?

oddconference · 18/03/2015 00:20

It took me a long time to bond at all with DS and I felt very down from the start and it just took its toll on us. He was really supportive at first but I couldn't bring it under control and he got too frustrated with me. It ended pretty badly.

My friend has taken DS overnight tonight so I have a bit of room to breathe.

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frustratedashell · 19/03/2015 22:43

Perhaps it was post natal depression? Did you go to the doctor or speak to your health visitor at the time?

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