I suffer from anxiety and get quite down too. Am on sertraline and it seems to work and also I think I have just generally improved.
My main anxiety surrounds health especially of the kids - everything from a cold to a tummy bug has me panicking. I hate myself for it. My mum thinks I am pathetic for being this way.
Usually I have dh here to support me emotionally just for someone to discuss things with etc and at times take over with the kids so I can go away on my own and chill out so it doesn't become overwhelming. Eg: if I've not had enough sleep or whatever.
However I've just dropped dh at the airport and he's going to be thousands of miles away for 2 weeks and perhaps uncontactable for much of that time.
I thought I was alright with it but I think I must've been in denial. I'm about to put the kids to bed and am trying not to cry. I am pathetic I know.
I don't have any close friends here and my family all live 150 miles away and my mum and dad can't travel. Dc are 8 and 4 and at school / morning nuraery.
Ds is recovering from a chest infection and isn't usually much bother but dd has a cold and has a habit of coughing until she vomits when she has one.
I'm just basically panicking about getting no sleep, about the kids being ill or me being ill (am currently recovering from injury which had me in bed for a week).
I don't know why I'm writing this tbh and I know I feel ridiculous and other people are much more capable than me. I never used to be like this.
I'm just used to having dh around even just to text or to talk to at night when he's home and I'm feeling really overwhelmed and lonely already and he's away for another 2 weeks.
I hate myself for being like this. Has anyone else been in this situation and been ok even if they didn't get enough sleep or the kids were ill or whatever?