Hi, I only visit mumsnet occasionally but tbh I'm so in need of extra support. Just need virtual hugs really and any positive advice (please be kind)!
Brief history - Ex hb left in early 2013 after years of a poor marriage (2 gorgeous dds 10 and 7). I Was retraining to teach. I graduated in May 2013 despite lots of stress and took a ta job last year as a stepping stone (the girls were used to me being a sahm). Felt quite confident at the time, moving on etc. Quite stressful but felt able to apply for ft teaching job and got one from sep 2014. However since then I've found everything too stressful. It came to a head in dec and I've been off sick since with anxiety and depression, on Citalopram (just moved from 20 to 30mg).
Anyway out of the blue I met a wonderful man in May last year. He's a single dad and although logistically it's been hard we fell in love quite early on. He's the most wonderful person I've ever met. He's been in the uk for 8 years and very well educated but has gradually become disillusioned with his life here- especially his job prospects.
A few weeks ago he decided the only thing to do is to go back home to Africa. He's told me he's leaving by the end of the month. He's gutted but feels his options have dried up.
I'm devastated. I'm in denial he's going at the moment and trying desperately to convince him to stay. I'm also really worried that if/when he does go I just can not deal with any more heartache and stress 
on top of the depression I'm already battling.
Sorry for the long post but wanted to give context etc x