How do I get help for my anxiety and rages?

[Sureimgoingmad]

I was diagnosed with depression at the age of 19 but to be honest I've felt that way for as long as I can remember. I had a bad childhood, I don't know if this is what caused it but over the years I've been on and off tablets and not much has ever helped. I was referred for counselling some years ago but it was at a different centre every week and I couldn't get there. I feel at breaking point, my doctor doesn't listen to me. Sometimes my anxiety is so bad I can't leave the house, my head is twisted up, I feel sometimes that everyone is out to get me and there's a constant talking in my head....not voices, just myself if that makes sense. I'm so fearful of everything it makes my life a misery, I'm scared to be alone. On top of this, every month just before my period I rage badly. Never at the kids, but at my partner or my family. My moods can swing back and forth several times a day, it's exhausting. I just want to feel normal and I don't know where to get help.

Couldn't read and run. Sorry you feel you are in such a state.
If you think your doctor isn't listening to you, then change, and find one who you can build a more constructive relationship with.
Can I suggest a web-based psychological support called Live Life to the Full which has some hugely helpful material on - I don't think it will fully address your anxieties but every little helps!

Yes, change doctors and ask them to review your physical health with regards your hormones.

Then ask for CBT for support with the anxiety/depression.

There will be a waiting list, sometimes of several months, so the sooner the better.

If you can pay for therapy, you can find a private CBT therapist in your area, or, for example, Anxiety UK can provide therapy and they have a sliding scale of payments depending on income.

Good luck op

Have you looked at PMDD. It sounds like you.

Hormones are nasty things

Don't give in to depression. Or hormones.

Take vit d, primrose oil.

I've also noticed that I can have bad mood swings after eating cakes or just heavily sweet foods. Sugar is the devil. Try a day without it, especially near your period and see if there is a difference.

Op I know the feeling. I found CBT very very helpful. Your depression etc will almost certainly be linked to your childhood and you need someone who can help you identify the links between then and now. It is prohibitively expensive imo £100 for 50 mins. But it was the best money I ever spent.

Yikes, Horrid, that's expensive! Around here it's about 50quid an hour private, or anxiety UK charge between about £12 and £50 for members.

Thanks for the replies. I can't really change doctors, my practice is big, there's around 20 doctors and I never get to see the same one, that's if I can get an appointment at all. By telephone you have to ring between 8 and 9 and if there's nothing left you can't book in advance, you just have to keep calling every day. I did register online and the first appointment with a doctor I've actually seen before was mid April, it's a ridiculous situation. I can't afford to pay privately so I'm really stuck.

Op are you sure you need to see the same GP? They'd have any previous notes from visits on the system. I know it's not ideal but maybe better than waiting til April? Or you could book the April one in, but still go and see someone before then using the ringing in the morning system, if you weren't happy with them at least you have the April appt as back up.

The CBT

oh my doctor's have a similar crappy system, it's infuriating isn't it?

I would book an appointment for as soon as you can, even if it means waiting until april. Make a list of things you want to discuss/ask. You never know, if you get a different doctor each time, you might even get a decent one at some point. Get on the waiting list for CBT and don't be fobbed off.

In the meantime get googling for information about anxiety and depression as understanding the condition is the first step in tackling it.

Have a look on the Mind website for information.

You can do it OP.

oh that's weird, I did the link wrong. Mind website here!