I have a phobia about eating out in public and have my sisters wedding to attend in 3 weeks time.
Arranged to meet my sister in town with my eldest son to get his wedding outift today, Anyway i leave house, am ok, get to station and all i want to do is go home, my stomach starts churning and i feel like im going to have a stomach upset. Get on train i occupy myself by talking a lot of nonsense on the train to my daughter, but then get really hot and panicky. Anyway get into town where i have to leg it down road to go to loo, still over quite over this anxious feeling as i meet my sister and my stomach is still churning. Then the crunch she says shall we have a macdonalds, i do my hardest to persuade her im not hungry, but unfortunately shes not silly, so i settle for chicken burger, while shes getting it run off to the loo to be sick. I get back not too bad, eat most of the burger.
As my sister says I did it. In my eyes i mite of did it but i still had to go through an awful lot and still be panicky, that feeling ive started to get when i leave the house like i need the loo is awful and I dont want it start ruling me. should i go back to the docs although im still only a week into the prozac.