Feeling scared

[Crazycatlady27]

I've never been diagnosed with any MH issues but I'm starting to think I've either got anxiety or depression.
I'm constantly on the edge of crying, irritable with people and today I've got that angry that ive bitten myself 3 times, but ive done this before.
My job is particularly stressful at the moment, well it has been for the last year.
I've been getting palpitations also.
I'm scared that I'll be put on medication if I go to the GP and don't know if I want that.
Sorry, just needed to write it down somewhere.

You sound as though you have extreme anxiety. You know yourself what the cause is and as you are unable to stop what is causing you such distress, your body is doing it for you. You will collapse if you don't take steps to alter what is going on.
Sometimes we get into such a state that we can't see the wood for the trees. My advice is to seek help from your GP. Not all anti anxiety drugs make you drowsy. Beta blockers don't. Wouldn't you like to have a peaceful nights sleep?
Medication can be temporary. Just until you have calmed down and get things into perspective.
The only other alternative is to start running and swimming and produce some natural endorphines.
If you broke your leg, you would get it treated.
Sorry, as I know how hard it is and you feel so useless having to resort to Meds.

Yes, it sounds like you should go to see your GP. I found that it helped to write everything down, and just to pass the list to the GP. I refused meds (for various reasons, one of which was probably anxiety ), and was given a course of CBT, which definitely helped in the shorter term. Other things that have helped are being signed off work, mindfulness, and exercise.

Crazycat, I do sympathise. I was terrified of having a MH issue but I now know that my fear of that made my anxiety far worse. Medication isn't for life - I needed mine for just over a year - but it helps you to feel more yourself whilst getting to grips with CBT (very effective for me), relaxation, exercise and self-care.

You'd take medication for a headache. You'd take it for asthma. There's nothing wrong with taking meds to calm things down whilst you sort yourself out and it says nothing more about you than getting migraine or toothache does.