I'm suffering from ppd. For ages now I've been thinking about going to my doctor, one day I'm really bad and I make up my mind to go, the next day I don't feel so bad, so I say, I'm not going down that road again. Anyway, I've been really struggling & so made the decision to go to my doctors. I saw her this week and she was horrible to me. Said she wouldn't recommend taking them if I'm breastfeeding. Why would I want to take antidepressants if I've taken them in the past and not found them much use. Said it was my choice but kept saying how bad it could be for my baby. I found her really dismissive.
I don't want to be sat in a doctors office looking for something but I'm there because I'm not doing ok. I just don't know what to do, all I know is that I can't bear feeling like this. Its 2am, my baby is sleeping, I'm frozen with anxiety my heart beating out of my chest. I am tired of suffering with this & feeling this way.