Looking from the outside in, my life is good in lots of ways. So why do I still feel so crap about myself? I absolutely hate the way I look, and after losing 2 stone last year for my wedding I am slowly (or not so slowly...) on a path of self destruction to putting it all back on again. I hated the way I looked in the wedding photos and it made me feel so down thinking about all the effort I'd made to look good and for what? I still looked fat and my face isn't pretty, no amount of weight loss will change that.
My relationship with my family (parents and siblings) is almost non existent and I don't feel like I have any close friends other than my husband. My children are hard work and I resent the fact that their arsehole of a father wants nothing to do with them and pays a pittance in maintenance whilst he lives the life of Riley.
I haven't taken anti depressants for around 3 years now and really don't want to go back down that route but I don't want to feel like this for the rest of my life.
Sorry for being so me me me but I don't have anyone to talk to.