hi
ive been lurking for a bit. I had a melt down a few weeks ago and had some very dark thoughts.
i got a repeat for meds (30 citalopram) a few days later when I could get to the drs.
ive history of depression but took myself off meds last summer. I forgot to take them and never restarted.
with time im better than I was. slightly more enthusiastic about life but still troublr sleeping no appetite no motivation to do anything.
im now wondering whether I have pmdd cos there are just some weeks I just can't cope. previously I was diagnosed with cyclomic (sp) depression cos my highs and lows can change in a day. and then pnd after my boy was born in nov 2011. then I had a bad time when my ex left.
my self esteem is a massive issue. when im feeling bad its non existent. a school life of bullying. a verbal bully for a dad. a string of toxic (emotionally abusive) relationships and no real close friends/support
well that's me. im nervous about my appointment and what she'll say/offer or whether ill just be brushed off.
I had some nhs counselling last year. but might ask for some cbt to help my self esteem.
I really don't know what to do