I do landscape photography and I have just recently met a guy who is younger then me who also does photography. I met him through my Christian support workers colleague. He’s a nice guy but I am very nervous around men because I was hurt very badly by my X and my confidence is not very good and I get anxiety attacks.
I am worried that he thinks I’m a bit odd because I am always apologising and has already made hints that we might not be on the same wavelength etc. I can’t trust men because I don’t want to be hurt again, I was dumped by my X when I got pregnant, It probably won’t be long before this guy dumps me as a friend.
I can’t help saying sorry all the time and I am not good at making conversations, because I’m always uptight all the time. I’m not a bad person and I can’t help the way I am. I don’t really know this guy yet, probably about since end of December, January. We arrange to meet sometimes but I still feel anxious about it, I can’t really explain to him because he’s a bloke, if he had been a woman it would have been a bit easier.
I have got learning difficulties and Aspbergers which doesn’t help. Am worried about this.