I've just finished 6 sessions of cbt counselling but feel worse than I did halfway through and like we were just starting to make progress when the sessions finished.
I was referred through a free service through my gp/hv and was told by the service I could have 12 sessions of cbt. When I got my appointment with the counselling organisation though I ended up seeing a counsellor who only practised person centric counselling but thought I would give it a go. It didn't help but by the time I got the confidence to say something we were already halfway through so I changed counsellors halfway through and ended up with a really good counsellor doing cbt.
But the sessions have run out and there are things I didn't even get round to mentioning and I feel worse after having my last session this week that I have for a while.
We never got round to talking about mils death, how it's affected me and my fear of death even though it was one of the main reasons I was referred in the first place. Or the fact that I don't like myself very much.
I'm being referred for couples therapy with dp through this counsellor but because of funding etc I can't have individual therapy at the same time but I can't see how I'm going to move forward in myself. I can't stop going over things in my head and keep crying.
I don't know why I'm writing it here I just don't know what else to do.