sorry, this might be a bit long. i had my daughter in March 05 and i've been 'sad' ever since. when she was 14 months old i was diagnosed with PCOS (i still hadn't had a period so they gave me a blood test. the hormone levels ment i had PCOS, but a scan showed i didn't have any cysts). i have since had another blood test to confirm the diagnosis but i've not had the doctors feedback on this yet. in the meantime i came off the minipill to have this blood test, and i've had two periods. anyway, my 'sad' days have good worse and more frequent in the past two months - spend alot of time trying not to cry and telling myself that i'm not that bad. my husband thinks i've been alot worse since i came off the pill to have this second blood test. i've just started back on the pill (the one that gives you 'fake' periods) two days ago.
has anyone else found that their feeling depressed is linked to their periods/taking the pill?
finally, i'm not sure whether to speak to the doctor about it. i've heard that taking the antidepressants can make life worse and take ages to get right. since i do have some days that are ok (still not the same as before but ok) i don't want to loose those days and have all bad days because of the medicine.
i just don't know what to do. i'm not suicidal, but i do want to hit my daughter sometimes (managed not to hit her at all yet but it's a real struggle - i have yelled at her which i immediately regret when her face crumples. mostly i hate having her see me cry - she comes and gives me a kiss and a cuddle to try to cheer me up). can someone tell me what to do.