AAARRRRGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
been unemployed single and way too fat and on my birthday night out I cracked -- Can someone just confirm that it is not normal to run out of pubs crying and go home on your birthday night out??
STupid bloke was "chatting me up" in a taking the piss out of the fat girl sort of way and instead of telling him to piss off I just stood and took it until I was in tears and ran out leaving my friend and the people we were with with no idea where I had gone.
Two years ago I wouldn't have done that - I'd of told him to piss off and got on with my night out. Where has that girl gone??? Why did he have to do that? Ok i'm fat you can't avoid that but why do you need to do anything about it?/ I see people all the time with fat arses, funny faces, all sorts but do I do anything to upset them no. I hate him and even worse I hate myself a) for letting myself br such a state that I don't just blend into the crowd and b) for letting myslef care about it so much that I want to not eat, avoid going out and worse.
The crap thing is I've actually dropped 2 or 3 clothes sizes to still look like a freak!!!I'm going to the gym, eating well except for the odd heap of chocolate - I know its not happening overnight but god do I want it to.
No need to post I just needed to get it all out