I think MAP may have failed and now i am failing

[yentil]

Let me fill you in:

took the pill on sat and sun after 7 day break; then forgot monday morning and tuesday morning pills(but had done the deed that sunday night), took mon and tuesday's pills together tuesday night (got home from work and realised) then morning after pill on wed morning to be sure (was told i could take it up to 72 hours). continued with pill as normal now on 7 day break and no period.

already have a 15month old and just about managing; since she has severe excema and poor eating habits for 1st year of life. just getting on top of it all, and marriage just about being held together. I suffer from anxiety and mild depression. I have has CBT and this helped but still have a fear of everything going wrong and like to be in control. now i feel that its all falling apart around me.

keep telling myself....period could be late because of stress hormones; period doesn't normally arrive til tonight wed morning really, but i feel pregnant (sore boobs and wierd sensation in vagina). TMI sorry.

it doesn't end there. after years of trying finally got an interview for a senior role at work. if i am pregnant, it would mean doing the role for 6 months b4 being heavily pregnant. last time i got gestational diabetes and was on insulin and found coming into work difficult. with this senior role i would have to on the ball.

finally i cannot even begin to fathom how i would finance childcare for two. i has planned to have another child when the 1st was at school to split the financial burden. my DH doesn't earn much and have a lot of non negoiatable outgoings so not much spare cash.

i don't know, everything seems to be happening at once and i feel like i am gonna have a nervous breakdown. i have major preparation for interview next week to do, but cannot concentrate.

if it turns out i am not pregnant i will be gutted if i don't get the role because of poor prepertaion from worrying about wether or not i was pregnant.

i am too scared to take a pg test, i am scared of pregnancy again because of diabetes trauma. i am scared of being financially ruined, i am scared of not being able to cope, i am scared of losing this opportunity that i have waited so long for, and to be frank would be difficult to go for again in the immediate furture. Also this would have helped us out financially and support my husbands low income.

i guess asking you all what should i do is a joke, because where do you start. i just feel that the answer to all my prayers will be if i am not pregnant. but if i am i don't think i could go through a termination either.

any words of wisdom would be appreciated. i am going out of my mind.

Poor you. I don't know what to say but I saw your post slipping donw the board unanswered....

FWIW, I was given a senior management role and later that month got pregnant with my first child so I can well remember the dreadful pull 2 ways between wanting the job and wanting the baby. In my life, sod's law would say that you will definitely get the job just because you are pregnant...

I don't know what you should do. If it were me, I think I would have to take a pg test just to know what I was up against. Until you do, you will not really know what you are facing. I have no experience of the MAP, but is there any chance it can delay your period? Is there a leaflet that came with the pill which might suggest this?

Poor you to be in this dilemma. I am thinking of you even though I have no real wisdom to impart.

you need to do a test, and the MAP can delay your period by a week.

Hi,
((((hugs))) for you. It sounds like you did all the right things, taking the MAP etc. I think that the MAP can muck up your system a bit (although I have no experience myself, a friend of mine took it and her cycle was mucked up for a couple of months).
Take a deep breath and take a test, It is the only way you will know for sure and then you can make some decisions based on fact.
Thinking of you.
Lou

thanks for your eplies. you're right i need to take the test. i just feel so tearful thinking about it. i know its wierd because i don't even know yet, but i just feel so scared of everything falling down around me.

i'll take the test.

Hi, I know you have a lot going on but try to find some positives to focus on, the ones I can see are: You have been offered an interview for promotion so you are obviously good at your job, which inturn provides money for your family also another good thing. You should try to focus on the interview whether you are prgnant or not, if you are the extra money will help with childcare, if not you will be making your whole families life better. Just try to deal with one thing at a time, things always seem much worse when there is lots going on. But I do agree you need to speak to dh about this, I am sure you will feel better once you have, Good luck with everything and remember all the good things!!

did you do a test?i just wanted to say last time i took the MAP(about 4 years ago)my af was 10 days late and i thought it hadnt worked.