Finally going to Drs tomorrow

[ihavenonameonhere]

Have been very down for about 2 months and have tried to get into the Doctors in the past with no luck. Today I just broke down and cried to the receptionist when once again when getting through all the appointments with the only Dr I like in that surgary had gone. He called me and I am seeing him tomorrow.

My partner is coming with me.

I have always had anxiety and been on citalopram 20mg for a few years but recently I have felt like I have lost hope in my life. I have moved in with my partner and things are great at home but I have no job and literally have lost all confidence to go and find one.

My siblings are very successful and I feel I have become so jealous of them and anyone else that has any success. I feel like I have achieved so little and all my success has been on their coat tails.

I dont want to die but getting out of bed now seems pointless and things just feel hopeless.

I am not sure why I am even writing this but I thought it might make me feel better to find others that have been in the same place.

Sorry you feel so low, you do right to go to your GP, maybe some new anti-ds would help?

I have no real words of wisdom, but I understand x

So glad you've got an appointment and are seeking help - well done. Personally I didn't find that Citalopram made a huge difference for me - I do much better on Sertraline. It may be that you'll find that there's a better option for you as well.

As hard as it is, try not to compare your life with others. You don't know what lies around the corner for anyone - all you can do is take care of yourself and do your best for other people if they need you.

Three years ago I was depressed and hated my life - I'd never had a long-term relationship, I'd been made redundant, and it seemed like things would never improve. Now I'm married with the sweetest baby boy and really enjoying him. Things have changed so much and I no longer go to bed crying.

All the best for the appointment!

Thanks. Today has been dreadful. I can't get out of bed. I feel trapped in a downward spiral