An update ....

[Loveisashadow]

Hello all,

I used to post on here under the name of kat kins, a few months ago. I was very poorly with pyschosis and depression and what I now know is borderline personality disorder. I last updated when my dd' s Father died in September. Since then, it's been a huge journey, and growing up curve. It has been very challenging;lots of ups and downs. I still have depression, quite severe at times, and have just been diagnosed with fibromyalgia. I am taking risperdone for my psychosis and duolextine for my depression. I have also become a self harmer, after five years of not. It's been a very mixed bag, and few months, with so much happening that I have totally changed as a person. I am writing to update and aplogise, as I did and said some hurtful things to other members on here during a very bad phase. I am calmer now, and currently going through an increase in anti depressants. I have realised this is a long battle, and it has worn me down to nothing, I am not my former self. But I am enduring. And I am truly sorry. I read tonight the long standing thread and how you all were. I admire the bravery of all the posters here, fighting this demon head on, every day. My depression has left me very isolated and lonely, I suppose that is why I'm posting. But mainly to update, as I do read from time to time.
Thoughts to all on the mh boards, whatever you are enduring.

Hello, I'm glad there are some positives in there for you. You sound to have gone through a tremendous amount - you are very brave to keep it all going and keep fighting. We must stand together against these diseases x

Thank you for posting an update, I am sure it will be a huge source of encouragement for all of us who have been effected by mental ill health. What an incredibly strong woman you must be to be fighting and surviving this.

Thank you both. I have come back to the boards reading a little now I'm more stable and able to talk on a level with people. In the past, I have been quite unwell and so stayed away because it wasn't helping me, or others. I suppose that's the thing about mental health- sometimes we can be so unwell that we don't even know what we are doing anymore. I think I should have been an inpatient, but somehow, ended up with crisis at home. I always say now I'm doing well despite the intervention of mh services!