I feel so overwhelmed

[Lizziemae]

I feel so overwhelmed with life. I take 40mg citalopram but the smallest thing can set me off into a panic attack - today it was when I remembered I hadn't made my bed. I also feel so depressed - to the point where all I want to do is stay in bed and sleep the world away. All the time I'm looking around looking at how much my life is falling apart; I can't find the energy to shower, change my clothes, clean my house, go out.. I haven't even got enough motivation to walk to the chemist to get my repeat prescription. I know my family and friends worry about me but I cant be bothered to talk or interact with them. I don't answer my phone, I don't want to go out. Now my workplace have texted to say HR would like an off-site meeting to see how I am and if they can help (I've been off work since just before Christmas). I've turned my phone off, made a hot water bottle and gone to bed. I just want everything to go away. I told my GP how I feel and her suggestions were think about going back to work, get some fresh air and make sure I spend time on my hobbies. I feel like everyday I fall a little bit further down and I don't know how to start going up again.

Oh Lizziemae I'm sorry you're feeling like this. Has the GP put you on the list for talking therapies or could you manage to pay for it? I've found that the medication PLUS psychotherapy is what helps me. Your gps advice is fine to very mild depression but you sound like yours is a bit worse than that. Sending you massive un-MN hugs x

How are you doing? X

How long have you been taking your meds? If not long, are you still adjusting to them? Otherwise they may need changing, ideally under the guidance of a psychiatrist rather than just a GP. A psychiatrist can also advise on counselling as Queen mentioned. I agree that it seems like you need more support & input to your treatment. Don't struggle on like this.

Do you have a supportive partner?
How long have you been off work and were there problems at work?
Big sympathy to you OP, it all sounds very hard right now. Try to be good to yourself and if your current medication isn't working ask to try a different one.

I know just how you feel but do try and get help. Citalopram can stop working if you have been on it a while. See if your GP will refer you to the CMHT - sounds scary but hopefully they can help you. GPs are OK but not specialists as the MH team are.