sometimes i feel like i have really messed my life up - where am i going wrong??

[muma3]

im 24 , no job hardly any friends. fell pregnant at 14 and have 3 dd's with 3 different men . i married dd2 father and that didnt work . i dont have any family ata ll as my mum didnt want me . now me and dp arent getting on at all and i just wonder how my life ended up like this.
i take full responsability for my choices and decisions but why can i just have a happy family and make a good relationship work?

i feel so bloody depressed right now. seems silly because sometimes i feel so happy i cry then days like this when everything goes wrong i just think i wish i could start again . i love my girls to bits and wouldnt change them for the world but i cant help wondering what if?

Bringing up 3 kids is HARD work. There's no way around that. You haven't had much time for yourself by the sounds of things since you were 14 and then the emotional turmoil of relationships going wrong. It's understandable that you're not feeling happy.

What's going wrong in your present relationship (I wouldn't worry too much about the past 2 because they're over now and it gets too confusing for you if you ponder over EVERYTHING). How old are your 3 dd?

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mama3, i totally understand as in the same position right now, except 2 kids with 2 diff dads. i am about to split from my 2nd childs dad (my dh) and feel like a total failure. we have to sell the house and my mum is now so angry at me for getting it all wrong again.
dont know what advice to give you, but just to say youre not alone.
it must have been bloody hard to become a mum at 14....i was 19 and that was hard enough.

thanks for the kind words i just feel lost at the moment. i also feel like my mum has passed away and not matter how tough and hard i try to be about the situation it still makes me cry for her like a baby no matter how much i hate her. i am sick of the kids seeing me cry and because things are hard i am started to recent the fact i have kids. i want an easier and straight forward life. i want to be looked after and cared for and im not getting that any where . yes- i am feeling sorry for myself because tbh i think i have bloody good reason sometimes. yes people have it tough and some times i appreciate things could be worse but i have the same amount of shit but in different ways iykwim.

i am so tired and just want to be selfish for a while , go some where and live a single child free life where all my problems will dissappear, staying away for a week or 2 just isnt an option.

i feel so ungrateful aswell and try to (every day ) think of all i do have but somewhere inside i just am not happy with what i have

am i making any sense im just typing as im thinking
sorry

giddy you always have kind words to say
thankyou so much x