Hi faith. Sorry to hear youre having a hard time.
I have no experience of that med and dont know what your diagnosis has been, but been 'self managing' bipolar for a year and it hasnt gone well, I'm afraid. I've had one hospital admission (last summer) and although I am much, much better than I was, it is still a struggle.
My problem is that all the meds I have tried so far have made me feel worse. Much, much worse. Which makes trying out new meds scary.
I decided to try a new med after a year off them just this week, but after just 48 hours of feeling like I had been poisoned, I stopped. I cant afford for my mental health to slide any further down and feeling ill/ being too tired to participate in life makes my depression worse. Its so tough. I know that you should give meds a good chance to work, but it feels like being caught in a catch 22 situation.
I'm going back to my GP next week to request a new psych appt to really thrash out the meds question. If you have been taking your meds for a while, rather than go cold turkey, I think maybe you should go and see your GP/psych preferably too, and talk it over.
Wishing you the best of luck x