Anyone around to pick me back up?

[QueenQuootieSpookypieBee]

Hi,
Ive suffered with depression for nearly 2 years and have slowly been getting better (doesnt seem it, but looking back ive come a million miles). The last few days though ive been spiralling downwards fast. Ive just been sat in tears for no apparent reason, and shaking. I cant function properly anymore, and have lost all enthusiasm. Sounds silly, but I was on the FLYlady thread and building back up my motorvation for doing things etc., but its all just gone. I really dont want to go back to where I was... but I really really cant "pick myself up"...

Problems with TV... unhooked old one and when new one arrived it was faulty,so, no TV. Ive busied myself putting a safety gate up which DH never gets around to doing

oh well done you. you're on the up again girl

URGHHH stairgates ..you end up just climbing over them as they are such a pain to undo!! wd though ..can you pop out at all and buy yourself a couple of stems of flowers? I dont know why but seeing a clear table and a couple of my fave Starhgazer lillies in a vase gives me little lift.

this ones a kitchen archway gate - and its being a pain DH never leaves money so cant go to shops (he would if I wanted)... just having a cry earlier and getting even just one tiny thing done is making me feel abit better

Sometime its nice to cry in peace and get it out of your system..I just hate the big red shiny nose I get..what wiil you do this evening?? have you got anything to look forward to?? a nice dinner , a small glass of wine?

I see you on lots of thread so feel like i know you a bit even though I don't really. and I don't want to think you are sitting there suffering thinking that no one cares, I know what depression can be like and I hope you feel a bit better

nothing to look forward to... just DH getting home about 11.30. 7 1/2 hours to go! I was feeling better, now im going backwards again I get a lovely red nose aswell

chin up girl..! well done on doing the gate..

thanks...

Just buzzing round MN now, being a pain in the arse

Dropped the Queen and Bee by the way

you sound better already, i've got my eye on you. I'ma at work though, all these people keep phoning up and sking for stuff, bloody cheek, stops my mn. How was the tea and cake?

think you should be queenquootie......!

like it

Very nice , thanks Im sort of OK one min, crying the next. Problem is... I always >> alot and go "yep, im ok" etc., out of habit and to be polite...

Really I should be putting :

if that;s how you feel...then let yourself feeeeeel.!

holding back your true emotions is not good....don;t you always feel better after a really good sob? i know i do!!!!!!

let it all out!

I was Queen Bee on the FLYlady thread when my house was sparkling & I was more a domestic godess Now im on the downward turn, im far from it!

gawd no... if i let myself go id be in a ball on the floor... little bits keep slipping out though.

well, you know that can all wait. you are the important thing in your home, not the amount of junk in your cupboards, or dust on the windowsills.

bump?

Just had some...err.. oven cooked chicken strips - nearest thing

I am soooooooooooooooooooo emotional these days!