Hi thank you so much for your replies.
The reason Im on it is for a couple of reasons. I get horrendous PMT/PMDD and it has been offered to me a few times, life has generally been very tough the last few years but I was coping and the happy times were happy despite my mood swings/anger/impatients occasionally but then my best friend was diagnosed with terminal cancer 3 weeks ago and theres simply only so much life can throw at you before you crack, so I started crying and couldn't stop.
The citalopram stop the up and down of crying and then I felt very depressed. My doctor said this was the underlying issue and it should help, she was right it has.
But Im still irritable and snappy and lose my temper easily and when I stated on this I thought 'in for a penny, in for a pound' and hoped that it would help the issues Id had for years - before life went all shit and serious.
Im not depressed per se and nor do I suffer from anxiety, Im suffering from life and all the terrible shit that its thrown at me and I reached my limit.
With regards to my anger/temper its often with my kids, for example I picked the eldest up from a school club and the second he got in the farm both kids were - well, being kids. Bickering (minimally!) nagging me for stuff, talking over each other to get me to listen and I snapped. Id had them in the car for 30 seconds and already they started (this is what Id said to them).
I never see any other mums snap at their kids and get cross, people look at me sometimes when Im screeching for my youngest to come back when hes run away AGAIN or hes have a tantrum AGAIN or my eldest isnt listening AGAIN or all fucking 3 of them at the same time which is what always usually happens.
My children need more patients, I need to be cAlmer, I need to deal with stuff better and Im wondering if Im expecting too much for citalopram.
Seems like it, doesnt it?
My kids are just being normal kids. I just need to be ok with that.
Disclaimer - they are happy, lovely kids who are well loved and looked after! They just have a snappy shouty mum at the end of her tether!