I am an idiot, ran out of citalopram now going cold turkey and going mad!

[sweetkitty]

That's it really last week thought I had another packet, I didn't, was supposed to go get a repeat prescription every day last week and haven't done, I'm a complete idiot.

Now I'm a week in cold turkey and going mad, I'm emotional, weepy, stressed, feel like my head is going to explode, feel dizzy, uncomfortable in my own body, confused, stressed I'm a complete mess really.

To make matters worse I have an important college interview on Friday, do I try and get a repeat prescription on mon it'll take 48 hours or do I ride it out and hope for the best?

I've also got a cold so am feeling really bad. I want to cry so much.

He's downstairs hoovering just now but at this moment in time I really do hate him, he asked how long my bad mood is going to continue?

Anyway I've had a shower going to get ready take DD2 and her friend out for the day hopefully find a chemist later and beg them for some citalopram and get some lemsips

I'm fed up with this lazy thing even the DC have started saying I'm lazy, I took his Fitbit off him and in an average day I walk 18000 steps or over 13k! Ok I crash on the sofa in the evening but I'm worn out by then.

Wow 18000 is a lot!! Mine was 7000 and something yesterday

Your DP should be supporting you. He should be driving you to wherever you need to go to get meds not making you feel bad.
Why are you with such an unsupportive dick?

Is there any chance that your depression could be related to being with such an unsupportive partner?

Managed to get 5 tablets from a pharmacy, thanks for the suggestion, will be putting a repeat prescription at the GPs tomorrow.

I take citalopram mostly for anxiety not depression not linked to my unsupportive partner but my rubbish childhood and NPD mother.

Why am I with such an unsupportive partner well no ones perfect and although he is rubbish when it comes to understanding my mental health issues, he pulls his weight around the house, he's a fantastic father, he works really hard to provide for us all, he's really supportive of my new career choice (if I pass my interview on Friday), he makes me laugh and he loves me. But like everyone he can be a dick sometimes.

If DP's a nice guy fundamentally, he might be a bit frightened as well as ignorant re MH issues, trying to persuade himself you can be chivvied into 'snapping out if it' (my Dad was a bit like this, old-fashioned attitude but not gone I don't think)

Maybe if he knew how common these problems are and how painful & disabling if untreated (same wiht migraine?), but yet, generally very manageable, he'd be a bit kinder.

If so, might be worth gently educating him/pointing out when he does/says something that's helpful. Just as a guess, it sounds like he just "doesn't want you to be like this" and is trying to wish it away? And inadvertently making it worse by doing so.

Andy yes, my chemist (a Boots) used to automatically make up the prescription and phone me to collect it when I was on repeats. Really helpful!

I've been with DP almost 20 years and I've had MH issues all that time. He's just one of those "pull yourself together get on with it" type of people. He also needs hardly any sleep and hates not being active.