Hi first time posting here, I don't even know where to begin Or what answers I'm looking for, I feel so overwhelmed and I can't think straight, Ive been suffering from anxiety for a while now and I'm not coping it's taking over my thoughts. I worry about everything from what people think of me, if people are talking about me, what impression I give off, if I've said something the wrong way to offend someone, they might have a go at me, I feel like I can't trust anyone friend wise even tho I have close friends I'm worried they will tell others my secrets as I've seen them do this, I have my husband but he just doesn't get it, he try's but he just says u'll b ok it's fine or makes a joke tryin to make me laugh. I end up just not saying anything. I worry about my health my kids health and my husbands, If my dh is not feeling good or has something wrong I think the worst ie cancer/ going to die then i Beat myself up as I think if I think bad thoughts then bad things will happen. I'm scared to go to the doctor as I worried what they will think or they will think I'm a bad mother. I worry that when I'm not worrying that I've forgotten about something that I should be worrying about,
I just need to learn how the control it how to reason with myself it's just so hard when I'm in the momment, once I move on to worrying about something else I think the current worry is so much worse and why was I ever worrying about the last thing.
Thank you for reading I don't know what I'm looking for people to say but i just need to vent somewhere