i neednd help quic k ly ****trigger warning suicide

[lenneh]

im in tears i cant think straight i cant
ive been sick twice
im contemplating suicide
theres paracetamols in my rorom im so tempted
im so sor ry

What's been making you sick, lenneh? Stress, or other stuff too?
I got sick when really, really stressed. It's horrible.
have you been able to eat or sleep or just go for a walk, even?

Are you in a safe place? Who is with you?

Block any threads that are getting to you, technology has an off switch too. You're doing fine, you're still talking to us you'll be grand

I once had to go to a&e with a very ill friend just after Xmas. She was unconscious and as I sat bored by her bed I got chatting with the lad in the next cubicle. His story broke my heart. He was 21 and was in a&e as he had tried to kill himself. He seemed like such a lovely, honest guy. I wanted to wrap him up and take him home . The staff were flat out (fair enough) and he was literally sitting there in a bed, all on his own. I begged him to give is life another go, told him he was worth another shot and that he had so much still to achieve before dying. I don't reckon he got much support beyond the obvious physical intervention required. I often wonder what became of him. He was to be discharged that day.

Op, try to be strong. Don't do this to yourself. Fuck every, single, last bastard who has wronged you. Fuck them. Fuck them right off. You can do this. You can make yourself strong and move on from this. You can be happy and live a meaningful life. Get angry and determined, you are worth it xx

Click off the tab now.
Go and make yourself a and brush your teeth.
If you have an empty tummy try and get a snack down you.
Vincent might be having an off day but better tomorrow.
It will ALL look better in the morning.
Click off the tab now.
Go to the classics threads here and read them if you cannot sleep.

i keep having moodswings
one second everythings hilarious and another everything is horrible
i jsut want to be normal why am i not normal

I see from another thread you are only young. It's scary being your age, and Us old gimmers got away with doing the teen thing away from the glare of the net. But the net isn't real life. Words are powerful but only if you let them be. Take heart from the positive messages and the love you get from people and use that for strength

You're a teenager and, I assume, female. Hormonal mood swings ARE normal

Everyone (apart from narcissists) wants to be normal. There's no such thing though. We are as we are. We can try to improve and better ourselves but we will never fit a perfect mould. Poke anyone and you'll reveal what they are trying to hide.

Lenneh

lenneh there are quite a few things that could be causing your moodswings. It might take some time to find out what causes them, and how you can deal with them, but believe me, there are ways to deal with very extreme moodswings. You will be able to find a way, and when you've done that, you will be able to help other people.
You may think you're not 'normal' but you can get through this. You can manage it and you'll have more to offer than you do already - and you have a lot to offer already.

ive been assigned female at birth
im genderless tho
autistic genderless gay(sort of) anxiety and depression
soemtimes i think i just want to be special
i want to be normal but i want t o be me
i dont know anymore

You're you. None of us are 'normal'. We're all different. That's what makes us all special.

Lenneh... you are normal.

You need to calm down. Keep breathing. Stop drinking, if you are. Have a cup of tea, or a glass of water and calm down. Breathe.

And what Catty says. There really, truly, is no such thing as normal.
Which might not make things feel much better when you're feeling terrible, but once you get your head around the fact that really, truly, no one is normal, it's a big relief, believe me!

still got the hormones of a teenager though? I still have hormonal wobbles - proper freak my husband out wobbles at that - and I'm over twice your age. Are you having support for your anxiety and depression? They are cruel conditions (I have them) but you can fight them, you're a strong person dealing with all you are going through. Nothing wrong with asking for help though so please ask for it.

Oops sorry didn't mean to do that. I hope you are ok, people on here are very supportive x

Lenneh just read a crossed post...

If you have ASD it is understandable you feel like this. But it is not ok to kill yourself. So STOP what you are doing and PUT AWAY the tablets. You need to talk to someone and tell them how you feel.

You are special.

Both special and normal.

No one else can be you. You are unique.

But what you feel is normal. It's not exclusive. You can be both.

I'll tell you what I have told my 15 yo. You need to relax a bit, and be okay with being you. Screw everyone else.

And as everyone else said. No one is normal.

What we are though, is individuals, and that's what makes you special, what makes me special, what makes everyone special.

I have so many wonderful bi, gay and trans friends. Everyone has found their place and what they feel comfortable and at ease with. You are most likely doing the hard part, workingout what feels natural. Yes, i remeber many tears ans heartbreak at that stage. I can only offer you the hope of coming out the other side. My Facebook feed is full of 'alternative' and very happy families. Lots of babies, laughter and love. There really is a beautiful future awaiting you, whatever and whoever you are. You can be happy in your skin and someone will love you for exactly who you are.

im not gonna kill ym self
i was just so desperat e
i feel terrible but ic ant have a day off school tomorrow because i had two weeks off for chicken pox and ill get into trouble if i have any more days off
two days until winter break is the only thing keeping me going now