I will try to keep this short but also not drip feed.
I was diagnosed with clinical depression almost 10 years ago. Since I was 20, I have been taking 20mg Fluoxetine on and off! I am now 24. I was consistently offered antidepressants from 15, but refused them until I couldn't anymore. They have helped no end! Every time I have come off them, 6 weeks later, the mood swings and anger starts again.
I am currently coming off them again, it has been roughly 5-6 weeks. My mood swings, anger and sadness is back again. I have felt that the fluoxetine haven't been as effective this time round. I had been taking them from April/May time. I just feel lost. My anger is killing me off. My DH and I are bickering and I shout really loud at him if he throws at me that I need to 'get' back on my tablets or if he snaps at me over something, I retaliate at such an emotional level. I massively over react.
My main issue though is how much I am shouting around DS (he's only 6) or I snap at him very quickly. I hate myself for it. hate hate hate
Anyone got any advice? I have done councilling, it didn't work. My AD aren't as effective anymore and I haven't taken them a while now anyway. I can't continue snapping at DH or more importantly, DS. I need to stop shouting but I struggle to control it. I am a lost cause! Why my family want me around I'll never know! I am totally fed up. 