Hopeless

[Lostweeksinmisery]

There isn't any point in trying anything else.
It's cold, dark, miserable and I hate myself.
My family hate, or barely tolerate me, I have no friends.
I don't think I like my husband.
I hate living surrounded by junkies and being on benefit.
I have a cpn, psychiatrist, social worker and support workers. None of them help.
I am depressed and having paranoid thoughts.
Just venting, too pathetic to hurt myself

Thank you.
I have told dh, but it's him i get paranoid about mostly.
Have taken prn anti psychotic, it didn't help me sleep though.
Cpn back on Monday, and I have support tomorrow.
I shall try a combination of ipad nonsense and catch up tv, although tv seems to fuel my paranoia.
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