Hi all, I've lurked around this board quite a bit, I have PND and am on sertraline for this, but lately I've become increasingly aware of how inadequate I feel at work.
I'm quite a confident, forward person but in jobs, even when I was a student I was always backwards about coming forward. I now find myself sitting in rooms having meetings with people and I just want to sink into the background.
I'm petrified of saying the wrong thing. I feel like I know absolutely nothing and yet this stuff is bread and butter to me. I find it so hard to speak up, I feel underdressed and under qualified despite having survived in these environments for years.
I'm overweight (I am trying to lose weight :)) which doesn't help anything really lol. I just feel a complete mess. And yet I happily stand and talk to rooms full of students who ask if they have a chance of being employed by my company and tell them that if they're good enough to pass our rigorous interview process then of course we would take them on.
I feel like such a contradiction, and I just wondered if anyone else felt the same?