I've recently returned to work following mat leave. I was diagnosed with PND a while ago but didn't tell them. Returning to work has exacerbated some of my symptoms and I've recently started taking sertraline, primarily for anxiety. I'm also seeing a counsellor via my surgery but not finding that particularly productive.
My job is very autonomous, I run a project and do all the work myself with minimal supervision. I can hide away or work from home and pretend it's all going fine much of the time, only now things are catching up with me and I'm sinking.
I just don't know about telling my boss. I'm on a fixed term contact and not being seen to cope could go against me for future work, and I don't want to be seen as lacking resilience or as someone who creates hassle. I also don't know what I actually want to happen. The project has to be delivered, it's my job to deliver it, and I'm not sure time off will help me. At the same time, I feel like I need to account for my poor performance at the moment. We do have occupational health but they have a bad reputation.
I know people have got much bigger fish to fry, but I'd be grateful of any thoughts or advice.