I have a stressful job but I am on maternity leave. At the moment I am planning on returning. I used to love my job but due to a variety of things (constant changing management, poor backup from other support areas, and a horrendous staff turnover) for the year leading up to me leaving I was surviving on adrenaline. Sometimes I am like yay I can do it and other times I just sit in heap holding my head. This is ridiculous as I am not due back for another 6 months. My DH notices that I am away with the fairies, however when I try to tell him he kind of wanders off. My parents are great but they say they don't know what to do. I don't think it is postnatal depression because it is so work centered. I can't seem to turn off and it is affecting my sleep. Sometimes I am so angry about how I was treated (which I totally bottled up at the time) when pregnant and before. However I don't even know if my anger is justified - maybe it is all normal and I have been spoilt. I can't talk openly at work because part of our job description is being positive at all times so I might get disciplined. In fact I almost did once when I was asked for an opinion on whether we could take on more of a certain type of urgent work for a new customer and I said no because the equipment had only just been fixed and we had a big backlog of equally urgent work and angry existing customers. However what if this is normal and I am depressed - leaving for good could make the anxiety worse. Thanks for listening.