I'm not looking for any answers as I'm pretty sure there aren't any, I just need to get this out there.
I don't actually have words for how much I LOATHE HATE AND DETEST this time of year.
I have chronic ongoing, generally well managed by medication, depression. I was also diagnosed with SAD about 12 years ago, having probably suffered from it all my adult life, if not all my life.
I take a high daily dose of Venlafaxine (375mg) and also have hypothyroidism (150mcg daily). I also use a medical UV light daily.
The lack of daylight now -and I live in Scotland so it's even worse-hits me like a ton of bricks. I have zero motivation to do anything, I burst into tears at nothing, and no matter how much sleep I get I never feel awake.
One of the reasons we have a dog is to get me out to get some exercise to try to help it.
I work 10 hour late and nightshifts so on my working days I see even less of what daylight there is.
I HATE it (and I've just had my 3rd bout of tears since 7am just typing this)