Do I carry on taking citlaropram esp if I'm due to start a new job.

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I was prescribed 20mg of citlaropram a few weeks ago and after the initial sleeplessness, falling asleep during the day, memory loss & grogginess I was feeling so much better I couldn't believe it. But I was very very foggy.

However I then unexpectedly got a job interview for a role I coveted (PT, permanent and fairly stress free) and thought omg I can't even use my brain to look up relevant info to prepare. So I came off them for 2 days. I didn't consult my dr, didn't have time. after the first day off them my memory returned. I stopped for 2 days swotted up then went back on the tablets till 2 days before the interview which was yesterday. It went well and I will probably hopefully get the job which would start in 10 days.

Herein lies the problem. Do I go back to taking the meds if I get the job or have I through sheer will power fought through all this. ( If I don't get the job I will be going straight back on citlaropram )
I had to work hard to sort out my sleep pattern for the interview and feel relieved I have my memory back. Am scared though that no meds will make me an anxious depressed mess, which was made much worse by a recent job loss. Although I have suffered for years with anxiety so needed to finally address it.

Or do I look at this as meds helping me through a darker period in my life bearing in mind I am prone to anxiety and stress in many of life's situations. I really do not know whether I should go back on the citlaropram and let it level itself out so I am a happier person or stay off it and be grateful it pulled me through dark times.
I am grateful for all experiences with citlaropram, especially if you work whilst taking it.

Generally it is not advisable to stop anti depressants without medical supervision. You have not been on them very long and you know best how much they have helped you. The risk is relapse and that would be very difficult with a new job.
I worked whilst taking anti depressants, I expect hundreds of thousands of people do.
Good luck with the job

I am due to talk to my doctor this morning but not the one who prescribed it, it will be another at my surgery who has known me for years. Although the advice I need is from those of you who have taken it. Friends of mine have used CBT and NLP to get through certain times and have avoided medication so I'm confused as to what is right for me. But when I do feel anxious I can hide away with the curtains drawn for days if I can get away with it and have done so for over 20 years. I can get very anxious in stressful work situations. But then I think don't we all really or do we? I get a bit angry and shouty when very stressed and have no control over that. This affects relationships and work. It has been nice being on citlaropram but it's the fogginess that I don't like and memory loss. Will this go eventually.

Nitty nana - thank you - this is what I need to hear. I have 10 days of taking them before I hopefully start this new job. I want to be happy and cope with life no matter what it throws at me. I think now is possibly a good transition period.

Then maybe citalopram isn't the right ad for you. It is rare to start on an ad and it be the one that helps you long term. It can be trial and error to get the right one.
Citalopram did not agree with me at all. It has now been put on my notes that I've not to get it.
When you see the gp discuss it with them and if you feel that you are better off on an ad but that citalopram is not for you ask for something different.

It's all so confusing now this new job has been thrown in the mix. I think maybe if hadn't been off the citlaropram for 2 days then I wouldn't even be feeling this anxious about not taking them !!!! I have taken one today and will def do the next few days to see if I balance out and lose the memory loss, fogginess which is the side effect I don't like.

Ok well I took my tablet today and now no longer feel anxious or stressed or indeed tired or foggy ! Although I am just at home not having to think about much. I think its going to work taking the meds and working if indeed I do even get the job. And if I don't at least I'll be ok about it and not lock myself away for days on end with the curtains drawn, and me unwashed. And maybe I'll be able to go out and apply for something else.