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I think I'm at breaking point

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MummySparkle · 22/10/2014 11:40

I cant keep up with it all anymore. I have a 20mo DS and 4mo DD and there is no rest. I can't keep on top of the house cleaning and laundry. We've just taken quite a financial cut. DD has reflux and has daily screaming fits. I'm up every night, up late, often ending up with both babies in bed with us. Last night I ended up with no duvet so woke up cold and stiff. I am so so tired and I just can't do it all anymore.

I'm on ADs. GP couldn't help, referred me to the mental health team, they didn't want to know. I can't keep myself afloat anymore :(

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windchimes23 · 22/10/2014 12:12

I had an 19 month gap between my two daughters, my first had reflux. It was the hardest thing I've ever coped with. She got better when I started weaning at five months.

What reflux meds is she on? Has it been properly diagnosed?

Firstly you need to get some uninterrupted sleep, sleep deprivation is torture and aggravates any other conditions. Could you get your husband to take them both for one night and put some ear plugs in. I know it is hard to switch off but you need this. Or could you get someone to come round during the day so you can catch a few hours sleep?

I gave in to co-sleeping. I had a cot (with the side removed) on one side of the bed and a bedside crib on the opposite side. I also used formula so DH could feed the baby (obviously not everyone's choice but it meant he could do more). Oh and we all slept in sleeping bags, me DH and both kids. So no one got cold and there was no danger of a baby getting trapped under the duvet/blankets.

The house can wait, I know about laundry with a reflux baby. Can you concentrate on just getting that done and sod the housework.

I can't offer anything else but the reflux will pass, and then things will get better. For me it was the seven month mark when things improved, I know that seems an age away but you can do it.

In the mean time keep bothering the MH team, you need help. Is there a local childrens centre near you, talk to your HV sometimes they can get someone to give you a hand for a couple of hours just to get the pressure off.

You are under a lot of stress, keep talking. We're pretty nice over here x

MummySparkle · 22/10/2014 14:38

thank you for your reply IIRR

The house can't wait. OH and I argue about the state of it daily. It seems as fast as i tidy it the toddler and the dog mess it up again.

there is so so much laundry! DD is always sicky / dribbly, DS still gets through a few outfits a day, and OH is a dog walker so he geths through two sets of clothes a day too. I'm on my 3rd load today and the laundry baskets are still overflowing!

DD's reflux has been properly diagnosed, she has been given gaviscon, but it makes her constipated so i stopped giving it to her and she seemed to improve for a few weeks. This week she's worse again. I hate seeing her in pain, its heartbreaking. I think I'll try and take her back to see the GP this week, but its hard to get an appointment.

I had a telephone assessment with the MH team, they just referred me back to the GP - cant win. My HV is fab, she comes round every few weeks, she trying to get me a referral to the children's centre. One of the ones near me runs a craft group for mums with PND, the next sessions dont start until january, but its something to look forward to. Aparently someone from the children's centre should be out to see me soon.

I have more to say, but OH is walking through the door, so id better go - thanks for listening :)

xXx

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Strawberryflip · 22/10/2014 15:17

Big hug from me - I know just how hard and never ending it can seem.

Keep looking to that distant light at the end of the tunnel - mine are a little more grown up now and it does slowly get better, or you just find a way to cope with it anyway!

I am a family practitioner in a Children's Centre and I can't recommend them highly enough. It may be different in your area but we don't wait for referrals, if you came to me and explained your situation I would have you in my baby group like a shot! the groups provide mutual support amongst the Mums even if you don't like the rest of it and hopefully they will offer you an outreach worker to come out regularly and see you at home. We are always on the end of the phone too if you need support. I guess you could always phone your local centre whilst you're waiting for your HV?

Look after yourself x

MummySparkle · 22/10/2014 16:24

Thank you for the hug strawberry much needed :)

To be honest, I'm a little scared of the chidren's centres. I dont really understand how they work or whats available. Our local ones dont have much info on their websites so without going there i dont really know whats available. I'm not great with phone calls, and I'm not really sure when I could go along to mine. I know that all sounds really pathetic, but there are so many unknowns that I just can't pluck up the courage to go along :/

Uninterrupted sleep - is there such a thing?! Think i've been up at least once every night for the last 22months... OH is on tablets for anxiety that he takes before bed, they make him really drowsy, so he isnt able to get up in the night with the minis. I'd give DD formula to have a break, but she wont take a bottle. Partly my fault because i havet tried her often enough, but bottles seem like one more thing that's hard work! At least boobs are readily available and dont require sterilising!!

DS goes to his Nana's on friday nights so we get a bit of a break, DD is too small for an overnight. I need to get her taking a bottle so i could maybe have a few hours in the day time. Sometimes the only peace I get is if I take them for a drive.

washing machine has beeped - time to get another load in...

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