I had quite a serious breakdown last year, i genuinely wanted to die, and attempted to harm myself. I didn't feel depressed, just didn't want to live despite a happy life and a job in the nhs that I loved. I am now on high doses of venlafaxine, and work in a part time capacity covering another staff members secondment. But I need to plan my next move as this secondment finish's early next year. I doubt if i can work full time as I get so tired, but is this due to the venlafaxine, or do I need to build my stamina. Should I try working full time, or is that a risk to my mental health. What help, if any, should I expect from HR in assisting me to find a suitable role. I am a hard worker with 20 years experience in my field, and a valued staff member. I worry about the future, and my employability. Does anyone have any experience of returning to work after serious mental health issues, and are there organisations i can get support from.