a hand hold needed please

[whohasnickedmyvodka]

I am having a really bad day again and need a virtual hand holding as I have no rl friends I'm currently 17+5 weeks pregnant my daughter has downs syndrome and hydrops I'm not sure if she is going to survive I have another scan in the morning to find out if the hydrops have got worse I'm stuck in the house with severe spd and can only walk with crutches I have been given valium from the Dr last week to help me cope I currently have my dd 8 who lives at home with me my ds 16 is in foster care due to his violence towards myself and my dd I'm being crippled by the loss of benefits and the bedroom tax I'm living on £50 a week for food bills and taxis to get anywhere as I can't walk I have my ds coming up daily kicking off because he wants money and I don't have anything to give him it's his birthday next month and is demanding expensive presents that I can't afford I just want to give up I can't go on I go days with out eating so my daughter can I can't go on
I'm sorry to ramble :( :( :( :(

So sorry you are such a difficult position. Do you have a husband or partner - I sort of thought you did as you're pregnant, but maybe not. I don't know what spd is but it sounds like it really restricts your movements.

I know so many people who are in a similar situation financially because of the way this damn govt has slashed people's benefits, which weren't very much in the first place. The bedroom tax is a joke - well a very cruel joke for people like yourself. Are you sure you are getting all you are entitled to - would you qualify for a Personal Independent Payment (PIP) because of your disability. It used to be called Disability Living Allowance (DLA) but since last year they have changed it to PIP - if you're not sure about your benefits you could contact Citizens Advice Bureau (CAB) and they will run a benefit check for you to make sure you are getting all you're entitled to.

As far as your son is concerned you will just have to stay strong and not give in to him - he must know you don't have spare money. Anyway if he is in foster care social services should be providing for him. Does he have any contact with his father - just wondered if he could take some of the heat off you.

I have a partner but he isn't coping with every thing that is going on to be honest :( :( :( my ds dad raped me the day after I had him and he died a few years later I don't qualify for pip I'm just so Fed up the spd is pregnancy related and I could be in a wheelchair it gets any worse :( :( :(