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Hand holding needed please

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clarella · 10/10/2014 10:02

This isn't that bad but after 17 years struggling with mh which actually is mostly linked to badly managed thyroid and my fear of admitting I struggle (fear of failure), I'm really struggling with letting my work know I need some time off. Social phobia linked to thyroid issues as to look at me it looks like there's nothing wrong but I'm not coping at all.

My boss is supportive, it's ignorant colleagues who frankly are knackered and old themselves and don't take my moanings seriously. Except I'm not moaning, I feel like I'm dying with sprains, aches, injuries , fatigue, I feel like I'm disappearing. I've tried 'carrying on' for over a year now with mixed success and am now facing facts for the sake of my health and also my son and husband.

I find it so so so hard to admit I'm struggling and so frustrating it can't be cured over night. I used to keep fit and so recovery after a wobble was quicker; Ive lost muscle strength and mass hence injuries from simply opening doors. Quite hypermobile doesn't help. Si joint really inflamed recently.

Typing this just helps even if no one reads!!

Right, off to phone my head.

Right off to phone

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NanaNina · 10/10/2014 22:25

You definitely need time off - are you a teacher by any chance?

clarella · 11/10/2014 20:56

Thanks Nana, yes I am. Sen so v physical. In good health I love it, but it seems my thyroid levels though 'In range' are not good for me. I'm driving a tank with no oil and I'm well n truly rusted up. I hate it as so few know what it's like; take one look at me and think I'm really 'fit' (I am when on top thyroid form). Then in a few weeks I'll be bouncing about again. (Hopefully, if everyone hadn't disowned me, my husband hasn't left me and I've still got a job)

After I typed the first post and spoke to my head who was supportive ( I think ) my mum said she wouldn't be able to understand what I was going through if she herself hadn't experienced low thyroid function too, which has helped a lot.

I've just discovered that the sertraline I was given to help my anxiety (following a thyroid slump post child) can make you need more thyroxine, so I've effectively been through a year of hell thanks to this important fact not being communicated well on the contraindications bit of either medication. Angry fucked off is an understatement.

I was a bit worried my head said oc health would be able to say if I could work there or not Sad I just need the fucking right medical management, the majority of my sickness in the last 3 years has been a direct result of pharmaceutical companies' errors. (Long time of in pregnancy due to dodgy thyroxine brand, and a year of repeatedly being floored by illness due to underparr thyroid as a consequence of antidepressant. Thanks big fucking pharma. Angry

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clarella · 11/10/2014 20:58

*off

Apologies typos

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