The background to my subject is that I had a missed mc in March of this year and op approx 6 wks later with a subsequent infection after that; simply an awful time. I have grieved (and still am), and come to this point where I have passed my due date, and now I am a month after that.
Things are difficult at work at the moment (aren't they always!!) which isn't helping, but I seem to have this anger in me. It isn't directed at anyone just circumstances and after talking to my husband last night and him showing his concern that he sees this anger in me when I'm frustrated, and it's something he's never seen before.
I didn't expect this to happen but I realise that I am angry that this wasn't how it was supposed to be this year; I should be at home with my baby and I'm not, and I have to go to work every day, and the emptiness is there that something is missing. I have to deal with stupidness and I don't want to because in my subconscious I shouldn't be there.
I have a person I go and see ocassionally to talk things through; I found her after the mc & op after realising then I needed someone to talk to.
I'm not sure what else I can do to help myself deal with my feelings and come to terms with the position I currently find myself in.
We want to try again but I believe this is in my way.