Does anyone have any explanation for this?

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I have bipolar 1 when manic I display all the symptoms of mania but no anxiety.

When depressed I display all s?mptoms of depression but no anxiety.

However when I am well I am always overly anxious.

Some examples are I am constantly scared someone will die.
Constantly scared someone will break in my house at night.
Constantly scared something will happen to dc.

I am definetely outside of a episode so why am I so anxious?

Because you're (subconsciously) waiting for the next episode??

Or that, yes, you have underlying anxiety but the BP 'trumps' it when it's active?

Dunno. They could be completely separate. Have you spoken to the doctor/psych about it?

I haven't spoke to the doctor because while the anxiety is not nice we always talk about the bipolar being the more severe illness so we focus on that mainly. Plus we talk about my very abusive childhood.

You may have something there though I do constantly feel on edge wIting for the next episode and I tend to disassociate from episode and have flash backs frequently (more about the manic episodes).

Like a song will come on that was playing while I was having sex with some random and I will sometimes vomit. I am a severe sexual abuse victim and if I sleep with someone while I am manic it brings out similar feelings to when I was abused sexually as a child.

I have slept with a shed load of men and women but I have only ever slept with one person while not on a episode and that is dh.

So it may very well be that I am waiting for the next episode.

I'd talk to them then (and poor you, quite understandable) as maybe a combination of talking about and medicating it may very well help.

Good luck.