Can't sleep - nervous!

[weegiemum]

I'm seeing the psych later today. After 3 years my periodic depression has come crashing over me again and I'm struggling to function. I know I need the heavy duty meds again, and I'm going to ask for a cbt and mindfulness refresher.

Just never seems to go away, I think I've got it licked and then it creeps up on me. I thought I'd got my head round my physical disability, but it caused me to have an accident and break my leg earlier in the year and I've been sliding down mentally since then.

It affects my work and my family life/friends and I think this time I'm going to have to accept that it's permanent medication I need.

I wish I wasn't such a mess.

oh weegie {{{hugs}}}

I don't really know what to say...only that if permanent meds will help you function and cope with what you are faced with every day, then surely that is the best way to go?

really hope you can get the right help wrt to cbt etc.

thinking of you

and have a too

Thankyou. I'm about to get up and have a warm drink and do some knitting - it really calms me! Dh is away overnight. I'm lucky it's the community team so she's coming to the house.

Calmed down enough for now, almost finished knitting my stripy hat!

You can always get through, and I know they're here to help. I just don't like that I need the help!

what time is the community team contact due?

good luck - if the help is available, then get as much of it as you can

well done on the stripey hat

She's coming at midday. Time for a shower and a wee bit of lippy - don't want to go OTT but I do want her to think I'm human! I saw her 3 years ago so I know she's lovely (she has a fabulous collection of shopping bags to carry her notes in so she doesn't look like a psychiatrist visiting!).

It will be good to know the ball is rolling wrt support, I know I need it!

Def. put on some lippy!
Hope it goes well

Looking all good but feeling very vulnerable.

I know they're nice but having them come in to your house, assess you is a wee bit scary!

How'd it go, weegie?

Great consultation!

She's lovely, psychology referral ok, meds increased, she's coming back in 2 weeks.

Taken seriously, and now am in the system.

Oh that's fantastic!

It must be a huge relief to be listened to properly and get the process working in your favour

Take care

Going to have to call the community day team at 9. I've not slept properly in 4 days, symptoms worse. Crap.

So sorry to hear this. How did you get on with your phone call? Did you get through to anyone?

Oh Weegie I'm sorry to read your having a rough time . I've had MH issues for years caused since being dx epileptic. I've been reading the MH more later as I'm reducing Citalopram dose.