Why are people who have bpd so unlucky in love?

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Although I have no formal diagnosis, I am sure I have borderline personality disorder. My personal life can be described as chaotic. I was in a very abusive relationship for 5 years, I have been mostly single since punctuated by one night stands, flings, painful break ups and a couple of really awful boyfriends who really hurt me.
Everyone around me seems to be able to hold their relationships together but I get very anxious and freak out thus destroying my relationships.

Is it some kind of attachment disorder. My friends think I have abandonment issues and I have been abandoned many a time including my child's' father who left when I was pregnant. It has been a bit of a mess tbh and all I want is a nice partner.

Have you had any counselling to work through why this has been happening? If not that might be worth a try. Are you in the process of being diagnosed? I'm guessing if so they will be able to help you access the support you need.

I think you need counselling in order to improve your self esteem and help you learn how to relate to people in a healthy way.