Depression or start of a breakdown???

[Ems86]

After some advice, have been suffering from pnd for 9 months, have recently split from my husband due to his infidelity, have not coped very well with this, have tried to make it work only to be constantly rejected, so last week decided to walk away for good, since i made the decision I have felt so much worse in myself, have uncontrollable sobbing outbursts, constant numb feeling and constant low mood, don't enjoy anything anymore, throbbing headaches and constant nausea, constantly feeling like a failure and everything I do is wrong, seem to just sit around all day staring into space feels like I'm watching my life go by from outside my body if that makes sense, if it wasn't for my beautiful children don't think I'd even be abl to get out of bed. Am worried as I've never felt like this even with pnd. Am also on the verge of losing my job due to my pnd. Am still waiting on counciling still a 12 week wait, any advice would be greatly appreciated. Is this just a lapse in my pond or could I be having a breakdown?

Oh you poor love it's small wonder you are feeling so awful. You are suffering from PND and having to cope with the breakdown of your relationship, as well as losing your job. I'm sure you've done the right thing by having the courage to make the break from your ex, but of course you are going to feel dreadful, physically and emotionally - it would be a bit strange if you didn't to be honest.

Are you on meds for the PND? If so, maybe they need to be increased. Re: a breakdown - as far as I can make out, a breakdown is just another name for depression and anxiety, so it isn't so much about what it's called but about how you feel and what help you can get.

Loss of some kind (not necessarily death) is almost always at the root of depression and it certainly sounds like you have some of the symptoms of depression. I think you need to see an understand GP (book a double appointment) and maybe the health visitor? Not sure how old your children are, but presumably at least one of them is a baby.....do you have any RL support - family/friends because you certainly need support right now.

You are probably a young woman and there will be brighter times ahead though I know you won't be able to believe that now - you will look back on this awful time in the years ahead and wonder how you got through it. BUT please try to get some RL support as soon as you can.