Long time user who's nc for various reasons.
I'm nearly 4 months pg with DC2 after a long time trying and a MC. I had a rough time at the beginning with nausea and vomiting but that has eased slightly now.
I feel very fragile and emotional. The slightest deviation from everything being absolutely fine and I find myself in tears feeling sad and hopeless and utterly unable to cope. This is everything from someone cashing a cheque before I expected to a work conflict, to a friend saying she thought I was insensitive (because I said something about 'why did I think this was a good idea' about being pg when she was ttc.)
I feel very anxious and stressed. I can talk to my DH, but not really anyone else IRL - the only person I even tried to confide in called me insensitive (see above). My bestest friend is really ill at the moment so I feel I can't talk to her, and actually feel even more crap that I'm not able to support her better whilst she's struggling so much.
I've told my MW who was wonderful, but has admitted that all she can really do is advise me to see my GP.
I don't really feel down about anything in particular. DC1's birth was traumatic and I suffered PTSD and (to a lesser extent) depression after the birth for some time, but I have taken steps to make sure this birth will be different and feel reasonably confident about how it will go, but still feel very sad and guilty about previous birth, with some anxiety attached to being at hospital for scans etc.
Some days I feel fine. Yesterday I was very very tired, but I got a lot done, felt like I had enjoyed most of the day, the day before similar but slightly less tired. Then a tiny thing happens and wham. I'm on the floor again (literally) crying.
Is this just normal pg hormones? Did anyone have AND? Is this what I have? I will take Anti-Ds if I have to, but am not very comfortable about taking them whilst pg. I am doing everything I can to reduce lifestyle factors (I've resigned one PT job, am cutting back clients to the bare minimum in the other, bowing out of various commitments if I can) but despite a brief uplift in mood, this has obviously not been the permanent fix I hoped it would be.
Sorry for the essay.