Decided its time to get some help. I would love to have children one day but this horrible phobia is making me terrified at the thought of becoming pregnant. I so scared it would ruin my relationship. My sister in law came by last night and told us she was pregnant. I am over the moon for them and so excited to meet Niece/Nephew but its also bringing out the worst of my phobia and I cannot deal with it any more. I hate this so much. What I wouldn't give to have a phobia of something I could just avoid.
Got a GP appointment tomorrow and phoned a couple of mental health organisations to see what can be done. Fingers crossed.